Week 29

How far along: Currently I’m 29 weeks and 6 days.

Total Weight Gain/Loss: 13.8 Lbs from pre pregnancy. (Up 5.4 from last week.) I was very upset about this, and the fact that I went from measuring ahead half a week to measuring 2.5 weeks ahead. She said I was ‘borderline’ passing my glucose test (136, and 140 is passing). So she wants me to watch my concentrated carbs, and if he continues to measure ahead we might have a growth scan in a few weeks. She doesn’t want me to have a double digit pound baby. I’m nervous about all of this, but she said several times– she isn’t concerned right now.

Maternity clothes: I made another run to Motherhood Maternity while they were having a BOGO 50% off sale. I only had two pairs of jeans, so I got two more in different styles and washes. **Both of my other jeans were the same exact style and wash. I also got two more shirts, and a long sweater that I can wear with leggings. Now… At this point I have: 2 dresses, 4 pairs of jeans, and 10 shirts/sweaters. I’m done as soon as I get 1 or 2 more pairs of leggings! I feel bad with only have 10 more weeks to go and buying more clothes, but I seriously needed something to wear.

Stretch marks: Yea, and I’ve been very bad about keeping up with the belly butter this week. It’s been so busy!

Sleep: About the same. I go to bed between 10p-12a, and I sleep till about 2a-3a before I’ve got to pee, and then sleep till about 7a-9a before I have to pee again, and then I’m up. **This is only if I remember to stop drinking water 1-2hours before bed, otherwise… It’s a lot more frequent.

Best moment last week: Getting this house packed up! It was a double edged sword to say this, because my back hurts so bad, and it was so stressful– but I’ve managed to pack the entire house. The only help I had was my mom came to assist with packing the garage up, and C still needs to pack up the electronics (TV wires, blu ray player, etc.).

I also went out twice (both in the evening, after I had finished working). I needed to see some of my friends one final time before we move. I know I will see them after we move, but moving 90 miles away is going to make it more difficult. So I really enjoyed our dinner/movie/shopping dates, and I’m so glad I was able to pack in two visits during a very busy, busy week!

Also! My mom finally got to see the house. She followed me to the house on Tuesday night after helping me finish the garage. It was kind of out of the way for her trip back to WV, but she came anyway. There are still a few things to be finished, but it was great for her to see where we will be living.

Movement: His movements are definitely more subtle, but there. He has started getting big enough that I’ve got a nearly constant ache in my left ribcage. That ache makes it hard to do just about anything. Drive, walk around, eat at a restaurant, and especially sit through movies at a theater– Which I did twice this week.

Food cravings: Still more chocolate. C and I had milk chocolate fondue when he came in for our Apple Store appointment on Wednesday. Oh my goodness– it was divine!

Gender: Bouncing bubbly baby BOY!

Labor signs: Mild braxton hicks. Still just feel like mild menstrual cramps. I now feel them throughout the day, and at night.

Pregnancy Symptoms: I definitely feel like my belly has popped this past week. It’s just so big. {TMI} It honestly makes it hard to go to the bathroom (Seriously, no one told me I was going to have a hard time cleaning myself!). I’m also short of breath, super fatigue, rib cage pain, gas, and awful (awful, awful, awful) lower back pain.

Belly button: Still the same: It’s getting less deep, but still there.

What I miss: Caffeine, pumpkin beer, and my ability to do more heavy lifting. We’re packing up the UHaul tomorrow, and I’m already feeling guilty.

What I am looking forward to: MOVING! **And the Spa night we’ve got set up for my friends bachelorette party. We’re all getting massages. Oooohh.

Milestones: We are one day away from being 10 weeks from his due date. That can be counted on my fingers! Ah!


All I want to do is nest… and I’m packing.

We are less than 10 days away from the move that I have been writing about for months and it’s coming at the point in my pregnancy where all I want to do is organize and think baby. Please don’t see this as whining, because I am very excited for this move. It’s just very hard to pack up all the baby stuff we’ve bought and watch it be toted away– instead of opening all the boxes and playing with it. So I’ve spent my down time getting some of my nesting urges out of the way the way any type-A person would– I made a list, or rather a series of lists!

I made a ‘Final To-Do’ list (which it daunting!), hospital bag packing lists (for me, hubby, and baby), freezer meal prep lists (meals ideas, shopping list, etc), and a visual birth plan— I said ‘made’ but I’m actively working on all of these. Basically, I’ve researched my little heart out. So when I take a break from packing I just pick back up on the research front and it is really helping my head stay in the game! **Once we get more settled, I’m going to share these ‘lists’ and have some blog posts one some of these topics.

I’m making quick slow progress of the house this week. It’s hard because I keep thinking I’m never going to have it packed in time. I’m basically doing the packing alone because C has a very busy week finishing up the house: installing fencing, running gas lines, and a few other miscellaneous things. He can’t take time away from the house to help me, and I understand that. I’ve been working on packing for the last few weeks, but jut the stuff we don’t actually use: pictures, etc. Now we’re getting to the nitty-gritty. Luckily I’ve had some friends offer to come over and ‘help’ — but mostly they are going to be keeping me company, and maybe moving 1-2 heavy things that I can’t move.

We will be officially OUT of this house by September 30th, and then the first 3 days of October I’m going to be tied up with my friends wedding, so I sadly won’t even be able to enjoy it. October 1st we’re doing a spa day/bachelorette evening, October 2nd we’re helping set up her venue and attending the rehearsal dinner, and October 3rd is the wedding. The wedding is taking place here in central Kentucky, and because it’s so far away from our home I’m going to be staying either with friends or at a hotel. C will be coming in for the wedding, which is nice.

After that we’re going to visit our Ohio friends for their son’s first birthday on October 10th, and nine days later is the baby shower. Hopefully after that we can relax and enjoy our home and get settled.

If I’m not around for the next few weeks ^^ This is why.

Wish me luck!


Week 28

I’m sorry– Where has my pregnancy gone?!

We are now less than 80 days away from our due date and have a crazy amount of stuff going on. We are moving in less than 2 weeks, which is so exciting! After 8 months of renovations, I’m finally going to be home. Both C and I moved around a lot as kids, and have struggled as adults to really connect with any of our apartments/rentals in a way that they actually felt like ‘home’– But not anymore!

He just went back today (after spending an entire week here in Central Ky for our doctors appointment, visiting with our out of town friends, and our 4D ultrasound appointment) and I followed him back to take a peek at the progress. We also loaded up both his truck and my car with some of the boxes I had packed. It was great to see some of the progress in person that he had been telling me about. I can’t wait to start unpacking and really letting my ‘nesting’ urge take over!

He’ll be back in a week, because we have officially transitioned to doctors appointments every 2 weeks, instead of every 4 weeks. My midwife has warned me that I’m going to feel like I live at the office– I’m excited about it!

I’ve also been working on his baby book a bunch! I’ve seriously filled close to 30 pages before I even get to his arrival! I just can’t help it. Project Life is an addiction!

Now, on to some 28 week pregnancy stuff! haha

How far along: Currently I’m 28 weeks and 6 days.

Total Weight Gain/Loss: +8.4 Lbs from pre pregnancy. (Down 0.4 from last week.)

Maternity clothes: I made some more shirt purchases, because I was wearing several of my pre pregnancy shirts, but they were getting too small. These scoop neck shirts from motherhood maternity are the most comfortable things on the planet! They also have 3/4 sleeves, so they will work great with fall!

Stretch marks: Yep. Though honestly not as bad as I would have expected. I have noticed some on my thighs, which is very new. Keep on using that Burts Bees Belly Butter.

Sleep: We were so busy this past week, and I managed to keep pace pretty well– but after a few days of going going going I had a day where I was so exhausted I couldn’t do anything. C was right there with me! For the most part I’m sleeping okay-ish. I’m still having some trouble going back to sleep after my 2-3am potty break, but that’s getting better!

Best moment last week: Seeing my husband for an entire week, our friends staying with us while they were on their way back home to Ohio, and our 4D ultrasound. It was a very eventual and busy week!

Movement: He is constantly moving, but I really feel like I’ve got a calm baby. While I do feel him move all the time, it’s not crazy like a lot of people describe. The lady who preformed our 4D scan said that a lot of times their personality is very similar to how they are in-utero. C was a calm baby, so maybe our son is taking after him. We did learn that he is head down, so all that pressure I feel under my ribs/sternum is my little boys butt. That is AOK with me– I love that he’s in a good position for birth.

Food cravings: Surprisingly enough this week I wanted chocolate. Maybe the weight of the gestational diabetes scare being lifted is part of that.

Gender: Bouncing bubbly baby BOY!

Labor signs: Still having some mild braxton hicks, but I’m not just feeling them at night anymore.

Pregnancy Symptoms: {Same!} Same big two: gas/bloat, and back pain. The maternity support belt is a big help and beano is a huge help. .

Belly button: I’ve noticed it’s even less deep this week than it was last!

What I miss: Being able to lift heavy things. All the packing and moving we have to do– I feel bad that I have to take a back seat for most of it.

What I am looking forward to: We’re moving in less than 2 weeks, and I’m exciting to finally set up his nursery and nest! Also, my friend’s wedding is in two weeks and we’ve got a spa day set for October 1st.

Milestones: We learned our boy is head down! I’m going to bouncing on a birthing ball and doing some exercises to keep him that way.


Creating Your Visual Birth Plan

I’m using this guide to put together my own visual birth plan! Super helpful, and exciting. 🙂

Combat Boot Mama

A birth plan is a short document to take with you to Labor and Delivery that lets the providers there know what your preferences are during labor.  It is important to keep your birth plan simple and easy to understand. Providing a copy to all those involved with your labor can eliminate miscommunication, help labor go smoother, and keep your wishes from being dismissed.

A visual birth plan is a great way to do this!  By using simple icons to depict your wishes, you let those around you know what you’d like and not like during labor and for your child during recovery.  A friend of mine introduced me to this idea, and when I asked how it worked out she said, “My husband had seen my plan and he and my doula spoke up for me since I came to the hospital already in transition and fought for the birth…

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{Project Life} Baby Book and Scrapbooking Haul!

I mentioned in my Week 27 post that I finally discovered how I planned to do build my son’s baby book. I know that while I’m pregnant the best time to start is now. That way I can build it as he grows and the memories are still fresh, and it isn’t as daunting. The method I decided is Project Life by Becky Higgins. This is scrapbooking made easy!

I knew that despite how badly I wanted to scrapbook that I wouldn’t be any good at it. I’m not super creative, so having to come up with page ideas or themes, and templates would quickly kill my confidence. So I was going to compromise and use an online photo book builder (like those from shutterfly), but I wasn’t thrilled about this idea either. I wanted a more hands on approach. So while shopping around Michaels I stumbled across Project Life.

I’ll be honest: just looking at the products in store I didn’t full understand the system, and because the prices were kind of steep I decided not to buy anything. I went home and searched around beckyhiggins.com, watched YouTube videos, read several blogs, and explored Pinterest. I was in love with the concept. Essentially all you need to make a beautiful scrapbook is: A core kit, an album, a big box of sheet protectors, your pictures, and some pens. You slide your photos into the slots, add the cards that come with the core kit, and journal your notes about the memory.

My most exciting purchase was the Baby Edition for Him. This kit is being phased out, with new kits coming soon. What I loved about this core kit is it provides ‘prompt’ cards, to help you stay organized while I build the book. The other systems give you more freedom. I also purchased the 12 month divider tabs and the scrapbook paper that goes along with the kit. I started putting the album together before I even had my pictures delivered from snapfish, because it is that easy to do! I know I might change some stuff around once I’ve got the pictures, but it feels great to have a start.

Another great thing is Project Life is currently in the midst of a retirement sale— So several of these ‘Core Kit’s’ that normally retail for 29.99, are significantly discounted both on beckyhiggins.com and on amazon.com. I went on a bit of a spending spree! Because not only do I want to build my son’s baby book, but I also want to build some family albums. So keep in mind with this ‘haul’ I was not just thinking about our baby book.


4D Ultrasound!

We scheduled a fun 4D ultrasound yesterday at a place in town that only does ultrasounds for fun: ie. gender determination, sneak peeks, and views of babies in 4D. My mom drove in from West Virginia to join C and I at the appointment. There are several places in town that offer 4D ultrasounds, but this place not only had great reviews, but they also were running a special when I made the appointment, and they spend 45 minutes to an hour with you– Not the 15-20 the other places spend.

Right away we were very lucky to get several front face pictures of our boy, and the first thing the lady noticed was his big fat cheeks! “Did you pass your glucose test,” she joked. He has my big fat cheeks and he’s only 28 and a half weeks. He’s just now supposed to be packing on the fat.

Then he yawned (or stretched, but it looked like a yawn). He spent the next little bit waving his arms around his face. We were so happy he didn’t block his face with his hands like he was doing at our last two ultrasounds. After that we got some great profile shots, and she was very impressed because she said most people only get front face OR profile, but our baby boy really enjoyed the spicy lunch and sprite I had before arriving (I picked out that meal for a reason!).

It was a great appointment. C and I nearly cried, and my mom was so excited to take a few pictures home with her. Something about seeing his cheeks, lips, and dancing little body made this pregnancy even more real (and I thought it already felt that way!). I am excited to enjoy these next 12-ish weeks with my husband, but I am looking forward to the day we get to meet our son. I love him so much already.


Week 27… Hello 3rd Trimester!

Wow! I am so excited to finally be in the third trimester, but mostly I’m frazzled. We have less than 90 days to prepare– I’m frazzled because I will only have 67 days until his due date (assuming he bakes until his due date!) by the time we move, this is also assuming it takes us until September 30th to be there, but there is a chance we may be there a little sooner than that. I am feeling better because we’ve got great progress on his stuff, and our baby shower is finally on the books: October 19th!

This past week I figured out how to do my baby book and I had my glucose test. I’ll talk about both of them below the survey I’ve done in the past– I’m doing it again to keep me organized this week.

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How far along: Currently I’m 27 weeks and 6 days.

Total Weight Gain/Loss: +8.8 Lbs from pre pregnancy. I jumped several pounds this week, and still my midwife seemed perfectly happy with the numbers.

Maternity clothes: Yes! But it’s about to be sweater weather and I’ve got a few prepregnancy sweaters that I think will still fit me, and I have plans to buy several more pairs of maternity leggings too.

Stretch marks: I’ve been using Burts Bees belly butter, but they are still coming. I’m trying to use it several times a day. I know I can’t stop it, but I’m trying to be less itchy and maybe help with them not be so bright red and angry.

Sleep: Some days I take a nap– It depends on what I’ve done that day. At night I usually wake up to pee several times. The dreaded 3am pee that keeps me awake for usually 2 hours. I fall back asleep around 5 and then get up around 7 to pee again, and then sleep till 9-ish. It’s exhausting. I’m having a hard time getting through the day.

Best moment last week: Two part awesome: My husband came into town (which is part one), for my midwife appointment (part two). I had a lot of questions now that we are in the third trimester and it was great to get them answered. My midwife is very patient and loves to answer my questions. I used to think that she was very young and that would make me nervous, but it’s had the opposite effect.  I also got the very POSITIVE results from my glucose test and I do not have gestational diabetes. I’ve been so nervous about this! I’ve got more about my test below.**

Movement: Oh my gosh, yes! He usually bunches up a few inches under my sternum and kicks up a storm in my lower abdomen. The other day I felt him go from transverse to up and down (I’m not sure which end his head was). I didn’t so much feel him move, as I felt his kicks go from being on both my right and left sides at the same time, to being at the top and bottom of my belly at the same time. It was so cute and bizarre.

Food cravings: Fresh fruit! I also discovered Beano and it’s changed my pregnancy life. I can finally eat fresh fruit without having extreme discomfort from the gas pains.

Gender: Bouncing bubbly baby BOY!

Labor signs: Braxton hicks started at the end of last week. I talked about them here.

Pregnancy Symptoms: Same big two: gas/bloat, and back pain. The maternity support belt is a big help and beano is a huge help. I’m not have any swelling, or anything else like that. I’m a pretty lucky pregnant woman.

Belly button: Still in but significantly less deep. O.o

What I miss: I was going to say pumpkin spice latte, but then I learned that they can make it decaf! (Yes, I’m aware that decaf doesn’t mean 100% caffeine free, but it is better than the copious amount that is in the regular drink).

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What I am looking forward to: Several things!! 1. Our friends from Ohio are going to be staying with us this coming Monday and Tuesday night while they pass back on their way home from Gatlinburg, TN. I’m so looking forward to some lady time, and baby time. 😉 2. Our 4D ultrasound is Wednesday and our mom’s might be coming. 3. Our breastfeeding class is also on Wednesday.


** Now the information about the blood glucose test. C and I ate a late dinner (830pm) and I fasted before the test. They told me it was better to fast and if I had to eat to make it something small. I had my drink around 1020, and I should have just guzzled it because the second half of the drink was very hard to get down; not because I was gagging, but because I was feeling so sick. I had the orange flavor and it was given to me cold. I typically don’t like cold drinks. I drink bottled water usually, and I never put it in the fridge.

Anyway, we then went upstairs to our appointment, and then went back down to the lab to have my blood draw. I’ve heard from some people they do a finger stick, but not my hospital. While I was waiting for my blood draw I started to feel the ‘crash’. I was feeling very lightheaded and nauseous. I told them this, and she just told me it was normal and if I felt like I was going to be sick to let her know. She had to stick me twice to get the blood, but I’m not really needle-phobic, so I didn’t mind too much. The best part of the entire thing was the awesome Mexican lunch C and I had immediately after. I was even interested in getting dessert, but I decided that I had enough concentrated sugar for the day. haha.

Also! I figured out how I plan to do our son’s baby book. I’ve been struggling with the desire to scrapbook, because I know that despite wanting to do it so badly– I would give up. I was thinking of just building a photo book (like those on Shutterfly), but I wasn’t a big fan of that idea either. Then I discovered the PERFECT option.

While wandering Michaels with my friend shopping for baby shower stuff we came across Project Life. I had never heard of it before and I didn’t fully understand it while I was looking at it in Michaels, but I knew I was interested in it. The kits were expensive so I didn’t buy anything that day– Instead I went home and did some more research about it.

An example of a page from BeckyHiggins.com

An example of a page from BeckyHiggins.com

They sell a kit called ‘Baby Edition for Him’ — It’s being retired right now, because a new set is coming out soon, but this means that the ‘core kit’ for the ‘baby edition for him’ was on SUPER SALE at Amazon.com. Actually, a lot of the Becky Higgins stuff on amazon was much cheaper. So I purchased the core kit, a big package of design A sleeve protectors, and a small package of the plain 12×12 sleeve protectors. Then from the actual BeckyHiggins.com I bought the album, the 12 month dividers, and the matching scrapbook paper. I do plan on doing a post by itself to talk more about this, but I just had to share. I’m so excited and I can’t wait to get to work on it. Below I put a few links to give you an idea of what a baby book can look like when you use this system.

My Pinterest Board about it: Here.
Tips to make a Project Life Baby Book: Here
How to set up a baby album, by Becky Higgins: Here
A view of the first 11 pages of someone’s baby book: Here


Braxton Hicks!

I knew when I was feeling Braxton hick contractions that they were not the real deal, but I didn’t realize what they were at first. I was concerned and nervous, but I didn’t have any bleeding, they were not consistent, gaining intensity, or all that painful. The problem was all of the literature I had read described them as a tightening feeling. What I am feeling is menstrual like cramps in my lower abdomen.

So google became my friend. I found several articles that described the different types of Braxton hicks contractions that people feel. Turns out menstrual like cramping is normal. I also talked to my midwife and she said as long as they do not gain any of the criteria of normal contractions I was fine. My mind was finally put at ease.

It kind of makes me excited to feel them, because it reminds me that my pregnancy is nearing the end. We are now in our third trimester and have less than 90 days to go. I want my uterus to workout and get ready for the birth ahead.

I also have some other things that I plan to do help me ready for labor: certain exercises, red raspberry leaf tea, etc. So I may be weird, but I’m glad that my body is gearing up for the birth of my son– even if it’s uncomfortable. 🙂


Week 26

This past week we made a lot of baby purchases, many of which I already talked about in a pervious post. Target has been having a sale in the baby department and even after I wrote that post– we indulged in several more deals. Now that I’m finally calling it quits I will post the final results of our spending spree by updating the list I made last week when I first took inventory of our baby stuff. In the last few days we managed to use our gift cards (a perk of Targets sale), Target’s price match, and their deals to save over 200$. The big upside is a few of these items we didn’t plan on buying because they were luxury/expensive items, but thanks to the savings we were able to justify it. 🙂

Boppy Pillow
A small collection of books
Crib Bedding Set
Baby Blanket
60+ pairs of baby socks
10 pairs of baby shoes
50+ Baby outfits Newborn-9months
2 sleep sacks 0-9months
Several different baby bottles (free from gift bags)
Hand-Me-Down swing (Thank you!)
Hand-Me-Down walker (Thank you!)
*Chicco Travel System 
*Diaper Bag
*Play Mat
*80 Baby Hangers
*6 Jumbo Boxes of Diapers (1 in size 1, 2 in size 2, 2 in size 3, 1 in size 4).

*Ignore the mess-- I've been organizing this room for the move!

*Ignore the mess– I’ve been organizing this room for the move!

Besides satisfying my desire to shop this past week has been hard. Despite C being in town for the past few days I’ve still been battling the blues that I’ve been having a hard time dealing with these past few weeks. It was even harder to say goodbye to him this time because I can’t stay with him anymore until the fence at our new house has been finished– So that we can keep him and our 3 german shepherds separated.

The reason for that is my grandmother that normally lived with us in our central Ky home went to stay with my mom in West Virginia until her place is ready. With her gone I can’t go stay with C at all because I’ve got to stay home with our dog. In the past when I took off to visit him for a few days she would be here to keep an eye on him and let him outside. So not only am I away from my husband, but my only company is also gone. I’m stuck in a very large home by myself for the next few weeks.

C does have plans to come see me periodically. We have a doctors appointment next Friday, and the week after that we have our breast feeding class and our 4D ultrasound. I’m going to try and stay busy by packing the house up and hanging out with some friends. We are in the final stretch and will be in our home in less than a month– So I am trying to suck it up and deal with it, but like the broken record that I am– It’s been hard.

Other than some mild depression, my symptoms have been pretty much the same. The maternity support belt has been a tremendous help for my lower back pain, and other than that everything is going good. I’m up 3 pounds this week O.O and I’m not sure how that happened, so this next week I’m going to put a lot of attention into my diet and trying to manage these numbers! I’m up a solid +5 pounds from pre pregnancy.

At breakfast today the waitress asked me when I was due and I said December, maybe if I had said early December she wouldn’t have asked in a surprised voice, “You’re only carrying one in there?!” I smiled at the comment and let it roll off me, because I have noticed myself that my stomach has really popped recently. I’ve been carrying our son very low, and while he is still low– I look much more obviously pregnant. Which is good because we are entering the third trimester next week! Just over 13 weeks until he’s due to be here, but he could very realistically be here anywhere between the next 10 to 15 weeks. So very exciting.



My decision to wait to go back to work…

My husband and I made the decision to try and get pregnant in February of this year, and with that decision we never expected that we would be the luckiest couple in the world, because our first month trying we were blessed with two pink lines. I hate talking about our ease with fertility, because I follow several blogs of women who have been battling for years with infertility, and I cannot even begin to wrap my head around the pain of that journey. We were anxious and excited to begin this chapter of our lives. The anxiety came with the timing.

The idea of starting to try when we did was that I was graduating nursing school, starting my new career, and moving closer to his family so we would have all of the support we could ever need. What we didn’t expect is for the renovations to be as in-depth and time consuming as they were. C’s original budget and time frame went over by double on both counts! Which means that we had originally thought that we would be in our home by May or at the latest June. When it turned out that the estimated renovation timeline got pushed back to Labor Day (now it’s officially been pushed back until the end of this month)– Our plans changed.

My plan to have a job within a few weeks of being out of school got put on hold until we were more stable. It would have been nearly impossible to work full time at a hospital 90 miles away from our home in central Ky, and it would have been terrible to start a job in central Ky that I knew I wouldn’t be keeping after a few short months. Not only was the distance a concern, but I also took charge of our house here, while C took charge of our future home: While he was managing contractors, and renovation mayhem, I was finishing nursing school (and the last semester in an RN program is brutal!), working as a nursing assistant, and staying on top of the house (cleaning, running my grandmother to her doctors appointments, etc). Between all of this we also were trying to make time for each other– now living 90 miles away from one another.

Then by the time it seemed like I might be able to start looking for a job (about now– with our move in date set for later this month)– it didn’t make a lot of sense to us. I’m entering my third trimester of pregnancy, and the process of getting on at a hospital is not speedy; interview to orientation, to finally hitting the floor can take over 2 months. By the time I would finally be working I would have only a few weeks before our son was due, and I would need to take off. Plus we had already decided that I was taking a full 12 weeks after he was born to bond with him, and establish a milk supply– Because once I go to work I’m not only working, but I’m starting a career fresh.

The thing about nursing is: Yes, I went to nursing school and passed NCLEX — so I am qualified in the state of Kentucky to work as a registered nurse, but when you finally start actually working and taking on patients: you know nothing. Every experienced nurse in the world will tell you that– when they started they knew nothing. Nursing is just as much learning on the job, as it is applying the skills you worked so hard to master in school. I was so nervous about losing everything learned in orientation and my few weeks on the unit with my 12 week absence that my husband and I came to decision for me to wait until after he is born to start looking for work.

This decision did not come easy to us. It is a financial concern, and it’s scary to start looking for a job nearly a year after I graduated school. I’m concerned for how potential employers will view my resume with a huge lapse in time between then and now, I’m worried I will have forgotten everything I learned in nursing school, I’m sad that the mandatory year of experience I need to apply for a midwifery program is going to take that much longer. Still, I am very lucky to have this option available. I’m so thankful to have a supportive husband and family. I’m just so nervous for everything thats coming.

If we could go back– maybe we would have waited a few more months to start trying, but then we wouldn’t have this baby– our son. So, with 100% certainty I know we can say that we do not regret in anyway the things that have come and will come to pass with this pregnancy and my job search, or any of it. We are so excited and thankful and ready.

**I’ve been having some anxiety over seeing all of my school friends post Facebook updates about their new jobs as nurses while I’m not even looking for a job is what inspired me to actually write out why we came to the decision to wait for me to go to work. I know all the reasons why we came to the decision and now all I can do is hope the we made the right decision.